The breaking of the Fellowship.

Dear Member,

It has been a little while since I last wrote for this program and the reason is simple – I fell.  I had followed all my guides and ‘lived’ my crosses for the love of God.  But still I succumbed to cross dressing and then the internet pornography. ‘That night’, I felt truly awful and couldn’t sleep because I was petrified I would die before getting to confession.  The short term pleasure of sin wasn’t even that great…so why did I still do it?  With everything I knew – why?

I fell because I wanted to. In fact, if you read a previous unit, you will see that I planned it.  I wrote Another Lenten Resolution a week before Easter Sunday; just eight days before I chose to sin.  I put the idea into my own head.  I knew my past failures and I knew the end of Lent was an Achilles heel for me.  Where was my armour and weapons of defence to that?  These questions are not new to us – we ask them every time we fall.  So how do I change something so obvious….

Please leave any advice or recommendations in the comments section below.  Feedback is definitely appreciated.

Yours in Jesus, Mary & Joseph

Sa James

UNIT 1.5.0 – I don’t need a Fellowship!