The last couple of days have been relatively calm and normal. I continue to carry out my expected family duties and I make a point of examining my actions each evening before bed. Really quite boring. So how do I continue to stay focused when ‘deep down’ I feel pretty confident that I no longer need to visit Men of Hope?
It’s easy – I have my devotional offerings to submit. Part of my healing process is learning to be of use to others. My sexual addiction was a selfish act and my devotional offerings are the ideal means to make an ongoing reparation for this. By visiting the site daily I ensure I am reminded of what I do not wish to return to!
In a sense I treat this as a part of my defensive armoury. Each day I carry out my ‘set’ prayer regime and I then submit them as reparation for my past sins and as a means to help others overcome theirs. In a day I have set myself the task of completing:
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2 Litanies
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I rosary ( 5 decades)
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2 Devotional Prayers
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One of the hours of the ‘Little office’
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9 day novena (not regularly)
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1 Self denial on a normal day (more if I have really had to fight)
