Day 28 – What a shame?

A very quick note tonight.

Do not be afraid of feeling normal.  I often over think my success – worried about it all going wrong.  It is okay to just be happy that today you feel ‘fine’.  In fact, it’s great to finally feel normal.  There were a couple of occasions that arose today that might once have led to inappropriate thoughts and feelings.  Today I just saw ‘normal’ – no thoughts arose and no sudden anxiety that I might need to fall back to my defensive shield etc.

Life is good, so we should enjoy it when the hard work starts to pay dividends. 🙂

CAUTION:  That does not mean I walk around with my head in a bucket of sand – I am still careful and I still review my day.  I just stop worrying that someone or something is ALWAYS waiting around the corner to drag me kicking back into sin…

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My Conclusion:

I think this challenge is more about reminding you of the accountability service provided.  Certainly I agree that shame is the number one reason we have so much difficulty with this addiction.  It is the number one reason that so few of the Fellowship maintain any sort of regular contact.

We are being reminded that accountability is for life – not just a month.  We should be forming strong relationships with people who can keep us safe from ourselves. I speak about this aspect in the Stage 2 Self Help Unit – My Support Circle.

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Enjoy what God is giving you and take pride in what you achieve – no matter how small.

Yours in Jesus, Mary & Joseph

SA James