I am really BORED and there is definitely an itch I want to scratch… So if I act true to my nature I will seek comfort in one of my ‘local idols’. My first idol is of course pornography, cross dressing is Idol number 2 and perhaps Computer Games – Idol 3. I have many […]
Day 16 – Idols or boredom? Read More »
Another day done and still I want to look at pornography. In fact, when I look back at my previous diaries I notice that it is around ‘this time’ that I fell off the wagon and gave in to my triggers. Knowing that I often fall after 2 weeks ‘dry’ seems an ideal ‘permission giver’
It s now 2 weeks since some of you last watched pornography or indulged in your addiction. For others, the days free of sin may be less – not to worry. What you will all recognise is that the struggle got a lot harder once you truly started to resist. So why does God make
Day 14 – Hidden Corners? Read More »
Another day closer to God? Sounds like a great start to a post but in truth it reveals more about how bored I feel. Life can be pretty tedious when you fill it with ‘nothing much’. Perhaps you are not married, no job, no close family ties, no friends and nothing that keeps you entertained?
Day 13 – Permission Givers Read More »
Another busy day outside today after a wonderful Sunday talking to our local priest during a surprise visit to the house. As we commence Advent and the start of a new liturgical year it seems appropriate to revisit challenges, fresh starts and purity novena’s. Just because I am on day 12 that doesn’t mean you
Day 11/12 – Links to trafficking Read More »
Another busy days outside…freezing in the cold. Lots of physical and mental distractions and then some fun entertainments before settling down to the harder work of Day 10. There is no doubt that when I fill my day with physical activity my thoughts will rarely drift to impurity / pornography. So more about the brain
Day 10 – Hypofrontality Read More »
Today I was so involved in my business that I didn’t even give addiction a thought. I am aching and tired from outdoors work and have that sense of satisfaction you just can’t get from anything else – including pornography! I know I will sleep well tonight and at this time I feel receptive to
Day 9 – Is porn really addictive? Read More »
So not the day I expected as I spent most of it in a hospital waiting room. Safe from any activation or triggers you might think…but it is strange how the unexpected keeps on happening. You might even start to think that the devil is deliberately setting you up to fail. As I said, a
Day 8 – All about the brain Read More »
Another warm welcome on this rainy afternoon. An ideal opportunity to continue the 40 day challenge. Today is another great example and I would urge you to spend the time studying it. As for me, I honestly feel a little more vulnerable than normal. A lot is happening in my life and I am finding
Day 7 – Purity Plans Read More »
Another day and still I have to struggle against different unexpected triggers. Still, I pray that God will take this cross away…it feels so heavy and at times so shameful. So toDay 6 and a personal account… My Conclusion: Listen and learn that we are definitely not alone in our struggle against sexual addiction. No
Day 6 – A real account Read More »
