How many times have you said ‘never again’ in the last 7 days / 7 weeks / 7 months?
How often have you been scared that the priest will question your lack of ‘firm intention’ to amend your ways?
How often have you lied to family about your reasons for ‘continual’ confession?
How often have you blamed others for not understanding?
How often have you fallen into despair and self-loathing?
I have given countless excuses and reasons why ‘this’ problem was not my fault and not mine to cure. I have told people that I was ‘wired wrong’ and have even blamed my family and work pressures for causing me to sin. I have even blamed God!
BUT
Never once did I look in the mirror and say – NO MORE PORNOGRAPHY – and actually follow through.
Then, several years ago, my spiritual director looked at me and asked:
"How much longer do you think you can keep playing Russian roulette with your soul?"
That was a hard question for me to hear, let alone answer. I had been ‘pulling the trigger’ for over thirty years with little sign of changing my destructive behaviour. I remember smiling at him uncomfortably, trying to come up with some witty comment.
My life had been full of ‘witty’ comments so it should have been easy. He just kept looking at me, waiting for the truth.
I wasn’t a gambler but even I could see the odds were stacked firmly against me. Hell was definitely at ‘evens’ whilst a place in Heaven was at best a ‘long shot’.
If you have made the effort to read this far, then please give yourself a little more time and play the video. Perhaps then, you will start to understand that you are not alone and that their is always hope. Join the Fellowship of Men of Hope and take that important ‘first step’ to recovery – you won’t regret it.
So what do I do next?
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